confessions of an alter ego

2 months ago

have you ever…

-had someone say something that simply hurt you without knowing…

-asked yourself -will life ever feel better than it does at this very moment…

-thought if God exist…does he even know who you are?

-had thoughts of …

-had no thoughts at all…

-had so much laughter inside you cried…

-felt a perfect breath of air pass right through you…

-missed someone so much you simply forgot who you were at times…

-loved the taste of something -that much more…

-told yourself…”just keep breathing”

…simply walked away from it all

Notes: 1 / 4 months ago

this is what my ex’s wife thinks of her own step child. i wonder if at all she realizes that she is in fact a 50yr old woman! not just why, but how could a ‘supposed’ adult write something like this about their own step child and blast it on facebook…who the fuck does shit like that at her age!?!? and to top it off…her husband -my ex…let’s her -about his own child…WOW!

hmmm…i wonder if the words ‘Mental/Verbal ABUSE’ have anythng to do with them separating/divorcing? just a thought…maybe she should think, BEFORE she speaks for once in her life…because in a court of law…this isn’t going to help her AT ALL…

i’m just saying…LOL!

KARMA IS A BITCH …10 fold!

5 months ago

needed this today….

6 months ago

a little bit of my ink…

6 months ago

a little bit of me…

Notes: 3 / 7 months ago

a very old friend contacted me recently out of the blue. says he has been looking for me for a number of years. we have been seeing eachother the past few weeks and enjoying getting to know eachother once again. wondering how things would have turned out had we stayed together all those years ago. we talked about how my best friend kept us apart all those years for selfish reasons and then her finally apologizing out of the blue just recently at our 25th high school reunion saying that she should have never interfered.

well, he and i both agreed that it was all in the past…or was it?

just last week, we met for drinks and he decided since we were opening up this new re-found relationship and was feeling good about it, that he wanted to come clean and be honest and lay everything out on the table so we can start new. so he decided to tell me that he had ALWAYS been looking for me. he wanted to know how i was doing and where i was at and that he wanted to see me. he said that my “best friend” -whom he contact with, had always told him that i was never around or with someone, married or living far away and to simply stop trying to pursue me. to let me go and to just move on. funny thing was, i would always ask my best friend about him as well and she would say the exact same thing to me about him…to forget him, he was happily married or whatever.

well, as recent as a few years ago, (being that she is still in a relationship of nearly 20yrs with his best friend who knows nothing), they managed to find the time to sleep together. she said that she wanted more than to just “sleep” with him and when he told her he didn’t want her and was going to continue to still pursue me. i think that’s what led to her apology last year at our reunion(?)

funny, cos she has never had the balls to admit anything to me…i guess 35yrs of friendship means “dick’…or good dick to her…

he felt the need to come clean because he wants to not have anything come between us, now that he found me and doesn’t want to lose me again…

sad as it is, seems to me like i just severed 2 very longtime ties and at the end of the day…i truly don’t give a FUCK ;)

BTW…LOVE THIS SONG!!

Notes: 12 / 8 months ago

dumbass or coward…?

so tell me…what makes a person think that an apology will always be ok after saying shit that sometimes…just simply can’t be taken back.

hmmm…i say…”um, fuck it -i don’t think so!”

it’s funny how they will say things that don’t make sense or can hurt and then blame it on something else. then when some time has passed…comes the “i’m sorry…i didn’t know what i was thinking or why i said that.” apology. the one that doesn’t even sound, let alone, feel sincere. it’s like they can’t take responsibility for being honest and owning up to what they say. i’d rather a person just man up and say “i said what i said for this reason…” or “this is why i feel that way…” i can handle that -because that’s owning your words. i have more respect for someone who can help me understand rather than blame it on something or someone else every-single-time! they use the words “i’m sorry” like it’s a get outta jail free card they keep in their wallet for times when they fuck up. and being a coward -that simply doesn’t count.

well, not this time…i am too busy laughing at how much of a fucking dumbass they are!

they cashed out their last “sorry” check in this bank.

next.

8 months ago

Notes: 24105 / 9 months ago from piccole-cose (originally from justgoodtattoos)

Notes: 360794 / 9 months ago from deadzie (originally from kamrynndenise)

Reblog if your Tumblr picture is actually you.

yes, um!

(Source: kamrynndenise)

Notes: 25 / 9 months ago

big big BANG!

Notes: 39 / 9 months ago

heavy with mood…

i can only expresss myself through words. and it usually comes through the sound of music. i don’t how to say things with soft tones without foul words to follow. i tend to say things like: “i understand, but FUCK it!” or “i am so FUCKING done!”

i think i use the word or words to emphasize just exactly HOW i am feeling, because there are no other words that can do the moods justice. when someone feels like crap or feels sexual they tend to use words that are heavy with mood to express how they feel and when you read it for the first time and you feel like you have to re-read it again…then it says something. yeah…it says something. then, when you are writing to the sound of music…it becomes a whole other story. it becomes a whole other feeling. it takes you to another place all together. it takes on a life of it’s own. there’s no bad intent behind it, just human intent.

funny how words like; vagina, GOD, bitch, cock, fuck…seem to emphasize our thoughts when we write…

one minute i am fine…the next i’ve lost my mind…

we are truly human…heavy with mood

Notes: 35 / 9 months ago

simply unbreakable…

3 days ago i felt broken. broken down down and beat once again. but now that i have slept and have had time to relax, clear my head and get my thoughts together, i do remember that it’s only those who i give the power of control to -that will try…

so it’s my turn to simply say…FUCK OFF!

i’m done.

Notes: 36 / 9 months ago